Whenever i wanna initiate a conversation with someone l always get really nervous about messing something up. Sometimes it’s some kind of faux pas, or missing a text, or forgetting to keep in touch with them. Whenever i do fuck up i get nervous and start avoiding them
I’ve ended up spiraling into venting to my friends too often like a moron and its so fucking embarassing like i just cannot live that shit down. I know im not exactly asking a room full of experts but i dont know who else to talk to this about, i really want to avoid dumping all my woes on my friends everytime we talk
u kinda just gotta do it i think. i dont really know casue im the same way but i think the only way is through. my reflex is to shy away from any interaction i cant script perfectly, and i know its gotta be the opposite of my instinct, so i think u just have to talk to people more even when u dont want to or when u feel like avoiding
i am SOOOO fucking avoidant btw like ihave lost literally every friend ive ever had because of my avoidant tendencies so i know exactlty how u feel and i know how much it sucks and how scary it is
Yeah ive missed out on befriending a lot of people who were actually really pleasant to be around :(
