I’m just insane 🤷‍♀️ low-key only god knows what wrong w me

a psych once thought i was schizoid but i think that was fake and gay

I have schizoid and schizotypal traits, but it’s just a note that acompanies my autism diagnosis. Not a concrete diagnosis.

I might be bpd, definitely audhd, big depression, and when I get really stressed I have paranoid schizo symptoms idk what that’s called tho. Like psychosis, delusions and hallucinations. But last time that happened I was literally being emotionally abused everyday by my ex. Obsessive compulsive tendencies, but not disorder. Like touching things 4 times, drinking and sipping 4 times.

No formal diagnosis except for add (back before that was rolled into adhd) and depression

I also have the propensity to shave my head when shit gets really bad, or have strong urge to do so even tho I know I’ll regret it. Also drugs, but I haven’t been doing those as much anymore. I used to trip on diphenhydramine alot

Oh and I’m super avoidant idk if it’s to the degree of a disorder tho

I wish my brain was normal and I could clean my house and hang out in the living room again, and go to the LGS to play magic. I miss my friends, I miss smoking weed, I miss going on grindr dates. I miss the short time I felt almost normal.

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