Some people tell me I pass, some say I don’t, the worst case was someone telling me that I look like a handsome man and ugly woman at the same time, but I can’t trust any of it. Every time I look in the mirror I see different face, ranging from manly man to effeminate twink, it changes several times a day and is always distorted in some disgusting way. The only things I absolutely know for a fact is that I have strong jaw and visible browbone but with okay-ish proportions, the rest is a blur filled in by my brainworms.
There are some with enough integrity to not do this at least, if you make it clear what you goals for the surgery are. So for example “having no features that are closer to the male average than the female average” vs “uwu the prettiest i can be”
I’ll keep that in mind. I hope to find someone who understands what “removing masculinised features while keeping me recognisable” means