i’m ready to go tonight, i’m not meant to yet i’m meant to hold on and try a bit longer but i’m ready, i’ve waited enough i know how this ends and im ready, i want to, i need to it’s what’s kindest for me why can’t i do it why must i hold on it’s not fair. Twenty years i’ve knows this was the best thing for me and i’ve held on only for others, but there’s always more others and i keep suffering, it’s not right. Maybe it’s selfish but i deserve to be selfish now, why can’t i just do it.


things could get better.
nothing had got better in three years, i’m tired of watching hope get proven to have been false hope
sometimes it takes a long time.
sometimes it was never going to
you can’t say that
yes i can sadly