i hate men because of trauma and growing up with older sisters and my mother who would talk about how much men suck.
i just dont want to be a man. thats it. idc what the world chooses to label me as long as it isnt a man. thats why i didnt have troon thoughts growing up. why i was okay with being a boy. because im not really a troon.
all my transition goals are literally just wanting to go back to being young again. i never wanted to grow up, for as long as i can remember growing up is something i hated. im disgusting


i really relate to this… i miss when being me didnt mean having to think of myself in this language of predators and prey i miss the world where i knew the face in the mirror, before everything became about the cruelty of sex