thank fuck

yeah constantly

good instincts about being trans and absolutely terrible cucked instincts about the medical system. tragic.

it’s really cool how every interaction with a new cis person is a cool invisible dice roll as to whether you’re dealing with a fellow human being or some kind of fucked up terrible devil wearing human skin

fucking hell

A. because the hrt question was from the psychiatrist rather than the nurse and

B. my brain loves to get stuck in doomer mode and forget actual positive things

had a nurse apologize to me for having my “birth sex” on paperwork (it was an F lol) so yeah ur probably right. i guess going by an androgynous name also confuses them tbf.

it’s possible, i guess? i’ve had people assume that before bc i tend to dress pretty androgynous/masc. plus all my legal stuff says “F” so they might genuinely assume i’m a pre-everything trans guy.

jokes aside i’d give anything to be back in washington again. hate these yokels so fucking much.

come to upstate new york our state laws are shockingly cool but our local trans healthcare will make you want to kill yourself

at this point yeah i probably will. worried that if they see my levels higher than cisf trough the fuckers will try to drop my rx though. same pp that refused to do a dht test when i had concerns about dht backpathing from prog because “testosterone is the masculinizing hormone.” i’m not making this up.

4 mg oral. the mouthbreathers at my local planned parenthood refuse to prescribe injections. they’re honestly borderline criminally negligent, met a gigahon who was getting meds through them and apparently they prescribe minoxodil as a “t-blocker.” lmao.

i’d just fucking diy at this point but i need referrals for ffs. i love living in a rural area.

i had an orchie like 4 years ago. last level check was… a couple months ago? i’ve been on the same shitty dose for years at this point.

during the appt i repeatedly complained about looking like a dude. 0 pushback. said i was ugly. all smiles, “oh no you’re not ugly you need to work on your self esteem.”

so glad i transitioned to look like a handsome man. ha ha. ha ha. ha.

why do they even bother engaging if they think you’re such a disgusting fetishist? that’s what i don’t get. like i’m not gonna go on /pol/ and try to moralfag them into not being racist lmao.

it feels like the only reason they’re engaging is to try and hurt you (which is par for the course with terfs so yk. not that shocking.)