I have lots and lots of surface-level connections, but no one I would consider “close”. It’s partially my fault, I’ve never remained in one place for very long, they’ve all been here way longer than me and I came into the picture later, so it’s not reasonable to expect them to drop everything to hang with me.

But it’s just painful at times how I’m nobody’s first or even second option, I don’t have anyone I could call up and go, “hey, let’s go to this thing together” and they’d be down. Can’t even get a response to a text sometimes.

I still do stuff alone regardless, but it gets a little old and tiresome, and people are way more likely to fuck with a lonely tranny than one who’s in a group or with another person. Makes me want to just quit life and go move to the middle of nowhere.

I don’t know what to fucking do.