I can’t stop thinking about this one interaction I had with my sister so I’ll post it here. It was ‘round midnight (haha, thelonious monk) and I was cutting my hair in the bathroom while my sister talked to me. My sister already knows that I am trans btw.

I told her I planned on starting HRT soon, thinking she’d understand, and immediately she started telling me not to and that it was dangerous (‘You’re my SISTER, and I care for you!’) Then she proceeded to tell me something along the lines of ‘Instead of transitioning, why don’t you let me feminize you so you can be happy with your body and won’t want to transition?’

I was of course very shocked she’d say that considering how close we are + the fact that she supports me in literally everything I do. She continued, telling me how lucky I was to have big boobs and that my body was beautiful, and that I’d be a manlet and ‘that’s fucking disgusting no one wants a short guy… oops sorry I didn’t mean to say that’ (yes this is genuinely what she said)

I told her that trying to connect to my femininity or whatever would make me dysphoric and suicidal, and then we talked more about it for a bit until she said ‘I also wanted to be a boy and had dysphoria, it’s normal’ (???)

I was speechless and soon after I went to sleep, but this whole conversation has been nonstop replaying in my brain. Thank you for listening