idk. I do nothing all day, every day blends into the next, i’m pretty isolated. dissociation, who knows?. my dreams are probably the most interesting parts of my day.

Not really caring how disgustingly male I look. A lot of it can’t be changed anyway

no energy to change anything at all

Just apathy but also restlessness? i wouldn’t say i’m suicidal but being dead looks more and more alluring than living. Probably a lot easier. I would never have the will to do it though. If I died i don’t think anyone would notice until room service came to my dorm

      there's something I need to do. I should log off for now (im okay, dont worry.)