i hate how hard it is for me to meet new people. i hate how fucking stupid i am. my brain barely fucking works. im scared af all the time. i never know how to respond. i can’t even respond to texts or anyone that reaches out bc of how socially dysfunctional i am. it takes me hours to type out a message and then i just end up deleting it and never responding like an idiot cunt. im barely coherent throughout the day. what the fuck is wrong with me. i want friends so badly but i can’t for the life of me figure out how to maintain one.