like, literally how do i decide between medicine and physics? they’re both so fucking cool… studying astrophysics or computational physics seems super fun, and the university i’m going to has good programs for both, but so does shit like plastic surgery and neurology… i wish i could do a double major and become highly specialized in nuclear medicine or radiation oncology or something. i also keep flip-flopping between wanting to focus on natural science and social science. like, for a couple of weeks, i’ll want to study physics or chemistry or whatever, but then suddenly i’ll change my mind and want to study literature, sociocultural anthropology, philosophy, or something similar 🫠
way too real 😭 my university application last year probably managed to cover all possible domains of knowledge…
A part of me is such a indecisive, goody two-shoes’d, and hobbyistically eggheaded mfer, that I think if I was given a million dollars I’d basically just surgerymaxx and get every single college degree I can just for the hell of it. Like I genuinely orient my life around collecting just general “knowledge”, even when I’m not in school, and I don’t like specialization, so it just feels like the “general ed” stage of education has no end in sight for me sometimes… it feels like I’m burning money, but if I settled on any of my first degrees I know I’d be kicking myself for doing that in the future just given how much I’ve changed over the years… the degree I settled on as of current was picked pretty much specifically because of its inherently multidisciplinary/integrative nature, combining a lot of stuff I’ve been studying and have wanted to study into one cohesive whole, so in-theory it’s PERFECT for me, and yet I’m still constantly getting cold feet about actually following through on pursuing it till its end…
yeau, i know exactly what you mean 😭