i just wanted to text my parents about following the world cup games casually because i wanted to not think about how awful the world is for once and how i was actually enjoying it with some tranner friends and my bf and it turned into a huge rant about how shitty and awful it is and how football is all just for racists and retards and making me feel like utter shit for even bringing it up. like am i just not allowed to enjoy anything even casually omfg