My condolences 🙏 androgyny is divine and enlightened, I hope you get access to the resources you need to feel comfortable, whether that’s breast removal or some kind of srs or fat removal or ffs or whatever. The extreme you’re experiencing may sound like a lesser evil to my mind but it’s still an evil. Nothing wrong with having transition goals that don’t wholly encompass one end of sexual dymorphism, I’d be feeling weird too in ur shoes