Being online in 2020 - 2023 I used he/him all throughout my adolescence and felt left out with people doing weird pronoun shit so I started to use he/they. The only thing was that I didn’t like being called they (obviously) so I tried neos but they made me feel genuinely retarded
I tried dressing fem and enbycoping for a while but it genuinely made me feel nauseous. That didn’t stop me from doing it for months lol.
The depersonalization is real cause my dysphoria has gotten so much worse post T even though im happy with changes. Before I could just coast through life letting transness exist in the back of my head. Being aware of yourself is terrible actually