I havent been well at all but im so tired now I cant even do anything… im scared of everything and weak and tired and in lots of physical pains… I just think I cannot continue… I wasnt meant for life… truthfully… I should’ve died as an infant… my health issues and birth defects were very serious when I was born… they were unsure what to do… since I was going to need a kidney to live… but I was a newborn and where can you find a newborn baby kidney thats a match… most adults cant even match kidneys… and for whatever reason I lived without the transplant… and every other opportunity I should’ve died… I almost drowned as a child… but I got myself out… I was always getting into stupid dangerous situations and always lived… I wanted to die so badly as a child… when I was 10 I used to run into traffic… on purpose… id leap into traffic hoping to get hit and die… noooo I always had to survive… I wasnt meant to live… but I did… I dont want to live… im almost out of energy to keep going… I just cannot do it anymore… stupid sick cowardly whore… im sorry my parents wasted so much raising a child just for it to be me