depressed. anhedonic. a chemical imbalance. endless medical explanations but no medical solution ever works.

im simply empty. apathetic, listless, bored. im bored of living. ive done everything i have available that i might have wanted to do. plenty of things i wish i didnt too.

id be happy ending things here. get held by my mother one more time, and close my eyes after watching one more sunrise. i think after that id be content to never open them again.