im not entirely sure why i didnt go thru with it, i just stared at the pill bottle for a few hrs, maybe its bc i had music i like playing thru my headphones, maybe its bc i was planning on dying my hair next week and wanted to see how itd look, maybe its bc i want to finish the jojo part im watching rn, who knows, regardless, its not like any of the macroscopic reasons for kms have disappeared, ill still always have a body that makes me feel like shit, ill forever be poor and struggle to make ends meet, i dont have any future rly, its rly just down to whether the vibe in the moment is enough to stop my ability to follow thru on my plans