Soooo, today she invited me to spend the August on her grandparents’ property in a small town. They live near a military station, but they have a huge ass 3 story tall house on the top of the hill that they rent out, and even a guest house, with a garden and a view on the sea from the yard and all. She said I could have the guest house for myself, or sleep with her on a bunk bed if I want (she said the bunk bed thing was a joke after I asked if she’s serious, lol). She really wants me to go, and so do I, I just feel like I’m gonna be a nuisance.

She even offered to tutor me while I’m there (after we talked about education and stuff), and says doing anything and spending any time with me is a leisure. We will celebrate her birthday there as well 🥰. Honestly, I’m not sure if she reciprocates the feelings of love I have towards her, but spending a month with her in a gorgeous beach town is like a dream. Yapping about things while being caressed by the sea breeze and playing guitar sounds awesome.

We were talking about our plans, and we both want to move to Norway, she even said she would like if I was her roommate, cause she will study chemistry master’s there, and wants to stay if possible. We can’t stop talking about our day together on this Friday, and how we will hug each other and cuddle, lol. She practices make up and sent me a pic of her with eyeliner, saying she wants to look even better for me. Is this gay? Or is this just wholesome female friendship? 😭😭