like, i’m out to my parents but still boymode at home, and it’s so fucking embarrassing to know that my parents know i want to be a woman when i just look like a faggy young man… i’m legit so ashamed of my own face. and, then, because of the stupid fucking meds the shrinks at the ward put me on, i’ve gained so much weight, and my waist—which was the one thing i kinda liked about my body—has gotten so large that looking at it makes me want to throw up. i feel so fucking ugly and disgusting and fat and freakish. i hate it so much, and it just fills me with shame to think about others seeing this horrid face as being me.