We started talking, became friends, and we are now flirting with each other, and she’s coming to my town in 3 days. I’m head over heels for her, I’m ngl. I thought I was straight, but I guess not. I can listen to her yap about anything, and she’s so cool and smart. She’s studying chemistry, she’s tutoring others, she knows how to make DIY hrt. She likes my music taste and we bought tickets to go to a show together, as well as planning to go to a medieval larp (not like that 😭) event together.

Today we kinda were exchanging pleasantries and nice words, and it went like:

Me: whoever steals your heart is gonna be very lucky, you’re so sweet

Her: Nah, I’m too clingy and needy

Me: I mean, there is always a person who will like you for you, I like needy, clingy men

Her: Same. Though, I do love girls too, actually

Me: (jokingly flirted and deleted after she saw it) So I might have a chance

Her: A cute girl like you has more than just a chance lol

She always says how she will hug me tighter for each self-deprecating thing I say, how I’m cute and she finds me pretty, but I feel like she deserves better. I’m ugly and lowk a mess. I don’t know if we’ll just stay friends or become something more, I’m still having doubts that I might just be acting creepy or something, idk. I guess I just wanted to vent, but advice and thoughts are welcome, this is still a crazy turn of fate to find a ride or die friend like that. I’m still kinda flustered.