I want to get a job and i already told My mom about it to start having My own money, My plan is working and having money and do DIY in secret to start transitioning fr, she knows I’m a tranny but she is really reserved and weird about it like, she still calls by My deadname and calls me her son, the way of “accepting” me or “supporting” me is not treating me like a subhuman faggot or taking me out of the house, that’s why i don’t want to talk about My dysphoria anymore with her or any of My family because every time i tried to talk about it everything goes to shit and ends up in both of us crying or just she saying that I’m a ungrateful son, so the only thing i can do is DIY and pretending nothing is Bad and not talking about My dysphoria never ever again, so I’m already in the process of getting some job but the thing is here, she thinks no one Will “accept” me because of My hair…like because of that no one Will accept me in any job, don’t forget that i’ve seen people in other Jobs with SO much longer hair and they we’re accepted but i think in the third world shithole i live in everyone can’t Even see no one with a bit longer hair without screaming faggot like scared retards, the point is, she thinks everyone Will see me as a tranny so no one Will accept me because trannys don’t deserve nothing except dying alone because the world is a beautiful place and JESUS CHRIST I HATE MY COWARDLY MOM ASS AND I HATE MY FUCKING COUNTRY, so yeah i Guess the only thing i can do is to make My already shitty troon hair be more shitty and ugly, i hate My stupid tranny life…everything for at least start having the money to stop being poisoned by testorone i guess…At least she told me she is not going to cut it too short (ending in the shoulders) so glowing out Will not get so late