ok so like the full story was that i had just gotten out of the ward and they made me go to some intensive therapy thing at a different hospital and when i went to that intensive therapy thing i told the therapist that i was planning to kill myself and so she called the hospital security to come drag me and i had plans to go to a concert with a friend the next day and so i obviously did not want to go so it ended up in a scuffle and eventually they got me taken down and i got handcuffed and so what do you do when you cant fight with your hands obviously you bite 😭 then they stuck me in like a restraint thing for like 10 hours it was like this picture but a lot less movement and whats funny is they actually didnt even keep me i got out the same day😭
damn, that’s lowkey kinda crazy… 😭 the rules for using restraints and force like that where i live are super fucking strict. it’s always so weird to hear about the shit going on in american wards, tbh…
it wasnt that bad the handcuffs were pretty painful but they didnt have them on me for long before switching to the soft restraints i just kinda have a weird thing about fighting because of my father like i feel like i have to fight back or im a coward even though it obviously doesnt benefit me😭 but other than that ive actually had mostly good experiences in the ward lmao ive been multiple times but it was always the same one and that one always had really good food and also i got a single room because tranny😭
i mean, still, the difference is huge… single rooms are the only thing that exists at the wards in my country. and, like, i’ve told psychologists that i will, without a shadow of a doubt, kill myself after seeing them, and they still let me go home because i’m allowed to make that decision myself if i want to… like, last time i was in the ward, i legit just brought my knife in with me and cut myself every day for the first month 😭 tho, part of the issue might just be that i’m too good at hiding how fucked up i am, because they always seem to think i’m not acutely suicidal, even when i’ll literally be rushing through the appointment just so i can go home and kill myself…
yeah ive only ever been to the ward after an attempt if i didnt actually attempt i can always weasel my way out😭 my fav trick for avoiding it is say that you were doing whatever you were doing for attention because doctors already believe that anyways😭
lmaooooooooooo 😭 way too fucking real… psychiatrists always seem to fucking hate their patients… i’ve managed to weasel my way out so many times just a few hours after attempting. one time i think i even had literal burn marks from the rope around my neck, and i still managed to convince them to let me go home… lol
ok so like the full story was that i had just gotten out of the ward and they made me go to some intensive therapy thing at a different hospital and when i went to that intensive therapy thing i told the therapist that i was planning to kill myself and so she called the hospital security to come drag me and i had plans to go to a concert with a friend the next day and so i obviously did not want to go so it ended up in a scuffle and eventually they got me taken down and i got handcuffed and so what do you do when you cant fight with your hands obviously you bite 😭 then they stuck me in like a restraint thing for like 10 hours it was like this picture but a lot less movement and whats funny is they actually didnt even keep me i got out the same day😭
damn, that’s lowkey kinda crazy… 😭 the rules for using restraints and force like that where i live are super fucking strict. it’s always so weird to hear about the shit going on in american wards, tbh…
it wasnt that bad the handcuffs were pretty painful but they didnt have them on me for long before switching to the soft restraints i just kinda have a weird thing about fighting because of my father like i feel like i have to fight back or im a coward even though it obviously doesnt benefit me😭 but other than that ive actually had mostly good experiences in the ward lmao ive been multiple times but it was always the same one and that one always had really good food and also i got a single room because tranny😭
i mean, still, the difference is huge… single rooms are the only thing that exists at the wards in my country. and, like, i’ve told psychologists that i will, without a shadow of a doubt, kill myself after seeing them, and they still let me go home because i’m allowed to make that decision myself if i want to… like, last time i was in the ward, i legit just brought my knife in with me and cut myself every day for the first month 😭 tho, part of the issue might just be that i’m too good at hiding how fucked up i am, because they always seem to think i’m not acutely suicidal, even when i’ll literally be rushing through the appointment just so i can go home and kill myself…
thats actually so crazy at my ward you can bring literally nothing in they strip search you you cant even bring in your phone or your clothes😭
lwky, i didn’t even get strip searched when i got sent to the closed ward a day after being hospitalized for an attempt… they only took my shoes 💔
sometimes, i wonder if i come across as too trustworthy for my own good…
yeah ive only ever been to the ward after an attempt if i didnt actually attempt i can always weasel my way out😭 my fav trick for avoiding it is say that you were doing whatever you were doing for attention because doctors already believe that anyways😭
lmaooooooooooo 😭 way too fucking real… psychiatrists always seem to fucking hate their patients… i’ve managed to weasel my way out so many times just a few hours after attempting. one time i think i even had literal burn marks from the rope around my neck, and i still managed to convince them to let me go home… lol
yeah ive had a lot of weird experiences with mental health professionals the psychatrist in the psych ward was really good though actually