i know yesterday i decided to uninstall most my steam games, but today i decided to organize them as one bit of doing something different. but, seeing games that i last played 2021-2023, it hurts. what was i doing 5 years ago? why is it only this year i seek mental help? every single day, maybe even every hour, i’m thinking that i should have done things sooner and it hurts so much. and it sucks because some of those games were undoubtedly cool. for example: oxenfree. great story game, i love it. but i last played it july 2021, five years ago. what was i doing 5 years ago? why did it take me so long? why didn’t i try to get hrt at 18? why didn’t i research hrt and bottom surgery? the pain makes me want to forget it but i can’t. i can’t live with my own past.