I cry at things like that allll the time… videos of them decorating a kids room or painting… or like the ones where they pack the school lunches… those make me feel so tight in the chest like a heart attack and it hurts so bad… and I cry and cry and scream… whyyyy was I cursed with this life… whyyy cant I have a family… kids to teach and play with… and a spouse… its so heartbreaking… id love more then anything in the world then to turn a closet into a little reading area… or a spare room into a play room… and watch how ecstatic my child would be… it is so sad…

me at 15 i had long hair (still male)

so fuckgin relatabel i was crting to momm y asmr cuz i havde no good mom and then when i see other children get treated well it makes m es so ad