Just recently was taking annual blood tests and was joking that ah such shitty results for being 3 years on hrt, still kinda estrogen poisoned. And well, comparing to a cisf my levels are extremely different, but tbh I also don’t know what the hormone results for your average zoomer would look like. I am still not convinced I can fully pass when clothed, even though I haven’t been misgendered in a long while. When I look at my photos among my peers I visibly look different, either younger than other guys or uglier than other girls, but usually both. I still haven’t had top surg and my document situation is too shit to even think about name/gender marker change. It’s not about me hating the results, but some part of me still doesn’t believe I count as a real person, be it trans or cis, even though it’s probably obvious that I am visibly trans when asked my colleagues about it. I used to think this feeling would go away once I start hrt, now I wish for it to stop once I get my surgeries and documents all proper, but some part of me feels like it will never feel normal or ok. Any older tranners have an advice on that?