Its 11:20 im so fucking fst and lazy

      • nowhxre gxrl 🎵
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        5 days ago

        i really dont know how i am atm. im feeling an emotion i dont think ive felt before and idk how to describe it.

        • polishsneedOP
          2·
          5 days ago

          Do you want tk talk or would you prefer going through it by yourself?

          • nowhxre gxrl 🎵
            2·
            5 days ago

            i dont rlly know how to describe it tbh. its quiet. and i have trouble focusing. i keep forgetting stuff. really easy stuff, too. i forgot what year i graduated high school. its a little boring but i accept it tbh its novel. it was hard to rlly doom earlier. i looked in a mirror, which usually either makes me very happy or very sad. it didnt do either. i knew i was supposed to be experiencing sadness, but it felt… intellectualized? idk. i was still sad, just… idk a word for it. nëjarën wo matô anagenoy ecwa. my feeling lives out far away and still i am here.

            • polishsneedOP
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              5 days ago

              I think I kind kf know the feeling. It’s like a distant melancholy which feels like you are observing your own life without knowledge of yourself. It feels kinda like extreme dissociation. Literal dissociation from your own body and all. Isk if its the same but it sounds like what I have when I have a rrally bad dysphoric episode and go to sleep. Weird.