i want to transition properly and theres a lot of things i need to fix in my life, but im fine honestly. im just chillin most of the time. i dont have a burning desire for something as impossible as waking up cis tomorrow. transitioning doesnt consume my every waking thought. i forget myself and just enjoy writing or playing vidya games or something. i am wayyy more chill at 27 than i used to be at 20. life sucks and im poor and pre-op, but im not starving or being shot at or abused anymore, so.