idk what happened, i been normal all day, but i jusf been laying in bed, for almost 4 hours now, wide wake,
i just, i am a man, its unfortunately true, some troons r messed up in the head enough they really basically r women, i love yall,
but thats just not what i am, its not to do with passing, i just really am understanding, just cause i dont relate to other men, and find masculinity toxic, i never had any attachment to my male appendage,
but that doesnt make me a woman, no male is ever born a woman, again their r some that basically r, and functionally r
but thats not what i am, i am not trans, am some disgusting femboy trap fag thing, i was right to medical mitigate the male condition, god knows i could bare a hair more of manhood, i wish i was alone,


These posts of yours kinda make me think you actually might be HSTS moreso than straight AGP like you asked me a while ago. Its really tough to say tho bc im not sure how much of you is being genuine and how much of this is self hatred.
But like a really big defining difference to me between HSTS and straight AGP I notice (bc otherwise both are kinda feminine and fags pre trans and fit stereotypical “HSTS”) is straight AGP girls are a lot more “I want to essentially be the straight cis woman I feel like I am” and is like ashamed of the pre trans faggotry whereas HSTS is a lot more like identified with it still and sees themselves as it still.
That said its hard to say bc like I’m straight AGP and I’ve wormed over being “just a gay man” before too, so I guess maybe its more like where the intended identity lays or so?
no i agree, and that’s the thing, i dont feel like there is a woman i am supposed to be, womanhood makes more sense, i like it. but i just don’t get this feeling of “home” or “finding ones self” that so many decribe
i dont really feel any better, at this point i am not even hating the idea that i am just gay, i dont want to be seen that way tho.
i think i am going to play like an hsts and just tell everyone i am just a trans woman. hsts/agp dichotomy is kinda fake, but in as real it can be i am hsts, i dont think the fact some agp maps onto me fully takes away from that
Yah it certainly doesn’t take away from it. I wish you luck.
i wish u luck too, <3