chat am i cooked? turning 20 in a week and im still dependent on my mommy because im a mentally deficient lazy fuck. unless i say its a sex toy she pesters me until i tell her what it is. she treats me like a child because i pretty much am one. i will never get hrt. i can’t even spend my own income on the stuff i want because of the consequences from my mother.
if i tell her i want to troon out and become the vxlid agender gendervxid they/them i always wanted to be she will simply think i am being retarded and refuse to take me seriously. getting tattoos was enough of a struggle (and now she won’t let me get any more until im gone). how can i even explain to her that i don’t care much about my body and it’s my voice and presentation and foid organs that i hate? she will not understand because she is stubborn and stupid.
And i am a coward. i am scared of injecting myself with anything. i am scared that if i buy a binder my parents will find it in the laundry and confront me (they will). i wish i was more assertive and less of a weak-willed autist. i wish i had my own place and the money to afford it. but i also want to keep living like an adult child forever. pic unrelated i just love golurk
and im kind of afraid to take testosterone because i already feel like a third gendered freak. i have too many feminine and too many masculine features (not intersex, i just look like a cishon). i don’t want to be so gendered. i want to look like nothing, and feel attractive.
injections are actually pretty painless. Also, getting a job probably will be good for you, even tho it kinda fuckin sucks
i do have a job and i actually enjoy it (thank fuck) but my mom is forcing me to put half of my income into savings. not that thats a bad thing but yknow
