i started hrt in january 2025 at 22. far, far, far, far, far, far, far too late. too late for it to be of any use. i should have started hrt as a teen, i should have come out about having dysphoria as a teen, but i was scared and i didn’t. instead i accepted being a boy and played video games, now i’m ruined. i never bothered to draw, to have actual hobbies, to learn or do anything new or interesting or cool. now i’m stuck with nothing, everything around me is a pile of nothing. i wonder how many awesome people i could have met if i made the choice earlier. so many things i didn’t try, and whats the point of doing any of it now? and i’m so fucking annoyed that all people can is “its not too late” like shut the fuck UP because IT ABSOLUTELY FUCKING IS. 10 YEARS OF BEING A BOY AND WHAT??? I CAN STILL TRY??? FUCK OFF.
i don’t want to die, but theres no way i can live with this fucking pile of failures ive wrought on myself. im done.
Its late, idk your bones etc, but please keep in mind youre only at 15% of new fat repartition. Big changes can kick at 1 year, 2 years, 3 years… Yes its extremely hard to just stick to that since its a small hope and youll keep struggling until then.
But please, dont drop hrt.
i’m not gonna drop hrt, i’m gonna drop out on life maybe
You can still change. Give yourself more time.
i’m 23 soon going on 24. i’m all out of time.
Me and my friends are the same age as you. Im ruining my life, but they are starting to have offers thanks to hard work and not having killed themselve. Some have more shitty life than me and are doing great things now. Its not over, keep going. If at 26 youre less depressed and can do things to find a good situation at 30 its a w.