I was banned from reddit a while ago for saying tranny. Joined here because I still hated myself. But I dont need this place anymore. I’ve been thinking a lot about how I want to be and carry myself as a woman. Its unavoidable that I am one now, still iffy on the face but we’re gettin there. It’s been almost two years of HRT, I cant cower away and hide myself in pits like these anymore. Lukewarm take but I feel like this place and every other 4t4 adjacent space is just a cesspool. Every time I look on here my dysphoria and self hatred get so much worse. A lot of yall DESPERATELY need to leave too. I get that its community but damn. A lot of you are being held down by it. If you want to ever be happy with yourself and feel that sunshine, you need to crawl out of this hole too. I wish yall luck n happiness <3 Inshallah everyone makes it

  • t. choder
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    8 days ago

    Don’t think I’m leaving-leaving, like fr fr, but I’ve been feeling kinda similarly, and have been stepping away more and more. I likely have far more of a chance at having a good shot at life than I realize, and I’ll never actualize my dreams if I just stew in negativity all day, which is most of what this place seems to be on some days, and increasingly so (not to imply I haven’t contributed to that in my own major way, especially on the Reddit’s before I got banned lololol). The sui talk really gets to me as someone who’s really trying not to attempt again. Hanging around here can feel like hanging out at a bar to kill time when you’re a recovering alcoholic.

    It’s just hard for me to feel all that included in any internet space that’s not for board refugees, so quitting here would basically feel like quitting the internet as everything else is unrelateable and I forgot how to talk to normiez, and sometimes I feel tempted to just quit the internet with just how bad everything’s getting. Maybe I should just use tech like I’m in elementary school again, and spend all day on videogames aha