i talked to my ex-repressor friend after she was on estrogen for a year. genuinely just going outside and embracing being trans publicly has done so much for her and she has made so much more progress than me in a fourth of the time.

fuck being a hrtrepping manmoder with tits this lifestyle is genuinely fucking stupid and i shouldn’t have done this to myself. i will honmode until i pass, and if i get clocked it will ruin my day but i can’t live like this anymore.

let this be (another) warning from me to not hrtrep “until you look like a woman.” you look like a woman by putting in a fuck ton of effort that improves your life! even if it feels impossibly hard take it day by day and task by task, never ever give up. we are all going to make it!

(i do still really mostly relate to other depressed trans women but all of these spaces inevitably turn into us enabling each other’s depression, and while i love you all i need change)