I think about it like 10 times a day everyday. I especially like to imagine someone beating me to death with a baseball bat. Id want the first swing to go right into the back top corner of my skull. The thought of my skull shattering and brain turning into mush genuinely brings me body shuttering pleasure. Not in a sexual way but like so much pain being lifted from my soul as the disgusting worthless flesh that is my head is destroyed for no one to ever recognize again.