Get shit sleep, be tired all day, scroll aimlessly all day and then go to bed and repeat

Ive tried getting work, didnt help me, and I am not having much luck with medications

I dont want to die even I just dont want to be alive

Its as if Ive been alive for way too long and I just want the silence. An immortal being would likely want it eventually

Hell and Im not even old by any metric either but I just again get the feeling that Im just sick of it now and there’s nothing left. My enjoyment of stuff is long gone and not coming back, neither is my motivation

How do people enjoy this?