like, how? just how? how can you not replay every shitty littlw mistake you ever made on your head over and over again untill it drives you insane? how can you not feel like everyone is secretly judging you all of the time and making the worst assumptions about you? where do you get the confidence to genuinely say you love yourself? that you’re a great person? like, how can you know that?

all of this shit is genuinely unfathomable to me, idk… probably bc i’m so terrible at existing. maybe they are just better than me.