I yearn so much, every day, that a friend of mine called me a “gigayearnoid”. I feel so needy and desperate for a GF, but unable to act on those feelings. Even if I was with a lady who didn’t want a sexual relationship, I still wouldn’t be able to do it… The idea of my tumor brushing up against her whilst we cuddle is… too much Besides, she’d deserve an emotionally functioning GF, not someone who cries herself to sleep over her bottom dysphoria