My 3 options are do it at home and try not to get found out by my nazi mom (or preferabely anyone else), ask cismoid friend for help which is gonna be fucking embarrasing and basically ruin my friendship with like 1 of my only 2 close friends or look for a random local tranny on tagmap or something that won’t be scared that i want to rape them and won’t try to rape me
Option 1 is risky cause the bathrooms in my house don’t even have working locks on them and I also don’t have any locked containers (and buying one would also raise eyebrows if it was found out) so I’d have to do my injections in the middle of the night and just pray that nothing gets found and that I don’t get infected while injecting myself with only the light of a phone lighter. Worst case scenario if it does my mom now hates me even more and my dad is dissapointed that his eldest son is a tranny but probably wont kick me out, either way I’d have to go somewhere else to do it cause my mom would start searching my room if she found out i didnt stop + there’s a chance I’d have to buy new vials
Option 2 is akward as fuck, i could go about it like “hey can i go to your house every week just for 10 minutes to do something also here’s a box of my shit please don’t open it” but that’s obviously not a good idea so I’ll just have to concede that i want to troon and he’s not a chud or anything but if there’s anything i gathered from the stories I’ve read on the 4tranosphere it’s that cissoids will always treat you different no matter what, I could say something like it’s just for hair loss but that wouldn’t make any sense since i could just do it at home then so I’m just scared he’ll treat me like an alien creature from now on
Option 3 I don’t have any experience but I’m scared to do it for obvious reasons, like I know there’s some people kind enough to outright donate their hrt but I also know there are a lot of asshole / evil trannies out there and also when they see me I’ll just look like any other moid so they’ll think I’m a chaser that got tired of grindr and wants to rape trannies
Sorry for the wall of text ive just been thinking about this a lot
Do you have good a spot to hide the box you’ll purchase in the house? Maybe you can order the box to your friends house, just get the box from them and store the box in the place you’re absolutely sure they won’t think exists. It has to be a psychological blank spot. Like the part of furniture that has structural space inside but isn’t accessible without moving the heavy ass furniture.
For example, this could also be the space under drawers, make sure it’s a drawer only you use though. As drawers can show what’s behind them, or get stuck to the objects that’s under or behind them if they don’t have space. Plus it’s easier to check drawers by pulling the drawer and separating it from it’s tracks on the sides.
I mean there are places in my room where even I don’t look basically ever and I could just buy a box locally. Just that it won’t matter cause im terrified of my mom searching my room if she sees any gyno cause if she does she’ll definitely find it and a locked box that she never saw before thats just as bad as if she outright just saw needles. Tbh maybe its learned helplessness or something i should probably just tank it and hope for the best and just move out asap
That’s why you need to hide it in a place she won’t find even if she searches it