I already decided it, i Will not be able to get HRT without My parents finding it out and beat me up for doing it, it was a horrible life, a short life, i don’t want anyone from here feeling guilt or pity for me, I’m not worth it, i want to die, i want to be in another life where i was a women, but I’m going to be in hell probably, and i honestly i prefer it, i want to be burned alive, i want to kill every hope inside me, sorry to everyone, I’m tired of everything