ive been waiting for this appointment for several months and it was a kafkaesque bureacratic nightmare the whole way through.

to make an unimaginably long story short, i was thrown into a lose-lose situation and had to cancel it to (1) not get outed and (2) because i wouldn’t be able to get care cuz of [LONG STORY EXPUNGED]

anyways i havent killed myself over this cuz i promised the most important person to me in the world1 that i wouldnt kill myself unless i effortmaxxed for like seven years.2

~1: me~

~2: turns out that all setbacks are minor when ur gonna die in six or seven years regardless.~