Yes, its my award. No, you can’t have it. Unless you already have your own. But really, with relationships being so tied to physical bodies and intimacy I know I can never be in a relationship. My body will never be passing, and with that I cannot devote all of myself to someone else when I can’t even exist as myself. My view of my body can never improve, there is no “learning to accept and embrace my AMAB identity.” And because of that there are no relationships for me. I don’t really mind in the grand scheme of things