Like I can feel I have become much physically weaker, some things I used to be able to open I can’t open, some things I used to be able to lift I can’t lift

I was by no means a gymrepper and again there’s my memory problem but I know I owned weights and used them occasionally and when I tried recently I just can’t, not even the smallest one

I know I’m not only weaker than before I’m also weaker than a cisfemale because some things I cannot open my mother can, and she’s definitely not doing strength training, so the thing about “trans women are weaker than cis women” isn’t honscience

And like… idk… I don’t really like it. I feel fairly pathetic and useless, I need help to open a fucking soda bottle, which I know kind of sounds malebrained but yeah

Also it kind of freaks me out a bit. What if some chud clocks me as a tranny and starts to attack me. I’d be completely unable to defend myself. Heck even if a cis female wanted to attack me she could

Maybe if I was actually smaller in size to show for it i’d be ok with the weakness but no I have the same proportions just weaker. I have the body of a man with the strength less than a woman, it’s stupid.