my voice is untrained and i also dont really care about it like that, i dont really have any desire to walk around doing everyday stuff in a skirt or dress, nor do i really wanna wear makeup.
i can buy women’s clothes, i actually did order a few things on Friday, but the stuff i wanna wear isnt anything that a guy couldnt wear too.
like idk. it feels nebulous to me at best. girlmoding or whatever wouldnt make me feel better even if i lived in a progressive area and doing so would get me gendered “correctly”. i dont care about getting she/her’d, none of that stuff matters to me. so i just dont see the point.


before diy id get my mom to pick it up for me cause it felt humiliating whenever i would.
diy doesnt stop the humiliation of every nurse insisting on asking " are you still taking the um… estradiol?" whenever i go to the doctor. they asked me that shit when i was getting a hearing exam for gods sake