I dont want to be a NEET forever but I also don’t want to re-enter the world, I don’t want to work. Its too much.

I don’t want to do anything or talk to anyone. Everything is boring and Im annoyed by everything and everyone. This world is disgusting

I dont want to feel better at times even, this is all I know. Though I hate feeling like this, I don’t want to.

I don’t want to be alive, though I don’t want to die either. Idk if Id say I wish I never existed. Probably I guess.

Idk whats wrong with me. Im just ruined. I cant really imagine a world where Im satisfied. Idk why Im alive. Idk why Im even transitioning at times. I mean I cant deny im dysphoric but I feel everything is too far gone to be savaged. Do I even want this? Im so disassociated its just permanent at this point and Id probably feel this way no matter what.

Where’s the appeal in anything. What’s the point. I died years ago. Idk when. But my body just decided to keep functioning.

One day this will come to an end. Perhaps that is one thing I do want.

  • Basedandtrollpilled
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    1 month ago

    You’ll feel better, and when you feel better you’ll see what’s in front of you and what you want to do better. Just focus on feeling better and healing.