So like I thought I had romantic feelings for my best friend, but recently I realized that was probably just being so depressed and lonely that someone treating me kindly was enough to make me get overly attached and focus my yearning to be loved on an idea of her. In reality it wasn’t really being in love with her but rather longing for the idea of love and focusing those feelings on whoever was closest and nicest to me at the moment, it could have been anyone really so it didn’t really count as being in love with her.

In conclusion my brain is so broken and I’m ngmi but at least I wasn’t actually in love with a cis woman which would be retarded and creepy. Anyone else had something like this happen or am I the only one who is this mentally ill?