second time i feel like that. it is so weird to feel this calm and stable as right now. and i am sad, so much of my life was drama, pain and thrown away, and i could have that the whole time. But no, psychiatrists are fucking assholes and everyone teached me how evil medication is…

  • [Elle]
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    1 month ago

    i get this so badly, sometimes feeling okay feels worse than feeling like shit bc i just cry about how long everything was shit 😞

    • FuxmoderOP
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      1 month ago

      what fucks me up too is that i reached out for help 10 years ago already… but psychiatrists hated me for beeing trans, then another one basically told me that i am at fault for things that were done to me and diagnosed me with adjustment disorder and bpd after 2 hours - at least he sent me further for diagnosis after i pressured him for 2 months also last time i got a medication it gave me suicidal thoughs or halluzinations and for some reason i was not allowed to try something different

      • [Elle]
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        1 month ago

        I’m so sorry, I can’t imagine how hard that is to get past. I’m glad that hopefully things are headed the right way for you 💜

        • FuxmoderOP
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          1 month ago

          i mean i am also just happy that everything is fine now, everything will be good <3