genuinely think i must have developed the least attractive combination of personality traits, its insane how quickly anyone who talks to me loses enthusiasm as soon as i get past whatever joke or conversational hook i initiated with. get okay amount of matches on dating apps etc but literally 0 interest past the first conversation. this applies doubly to non romantic relationships, i have maybe 2 long term friends who i rarely message and thats genuinely all i’ve managed to keep a hold of. it just hurts because i see even the most struggling people manage to find communities and such whilst for me its genuinely just a fantasy.

ok shite vent post over sorry i just needed somewhere to put my slop