I wish I could form close relationships with people but I’m literally retarded and I don’t know what to say to do that. Everything is so confusing. I don’t know what to do. I live in a world where nothing makes sense. Everything is gay and retarded and makes no sense.

I am permanently traumatized from my childhood and being treated terribly and being bullied and making no friends and everyone hating me. I feel terrible all the time. I am weird as shit, I’m completely abnormal. Autism did this and I want the autism to go away.