i think i’m actually becoming a bitterhon i feel so horrible when i see happy or pretty or fashionable ppl outside
i dont think you ever stop. ever since i discovered this fucking curse its all i really do when i see cis people. i get immensely jealous and by default hate them for it. i know theyre above me in the hierarchy of all things but i try to make myself ‘above them’. with various excuses such as: im smarter or whatever
because of that i dont really leave my room
i feel jealous and resentful even of people with objectively shit lives both irl and online its actually so bad
real i don’t know how to stop myself though and it’s just been getting worse over time
i dont know if its possible tbh, i just bury my envy under a facade of positivity and that works well enough
yeah sometimes resentment is justified imo. I feel like best I can do is to get my mind of it and reclaim my time by doing something nice like going on a walk and listening to music. I do my best not to spiral into it
i mean they don’t really do anything bad so i think it’s kinda unjustified. i get bitter even just going outside and seeing random people
