I wish i can feel her arms around me, i wish i can feel her breath under My head, hearing her, huging her and just be there, i wish i can Say to her how much she matters to me, how much i love her and that without her i would probably be so damn depressed all day, i wish i can hear her Say that Words too…i wish so many things, i yearn so many things that makes me feel ashamed and disgusting but… isn’t that the point of desiring something so personal and intimate? I wish i can express that feeling to that person, to feel wanted and loved in a way that i almost consider ethereal or impossible for My idea of myself as disgusting but…Even with that…i wish, i wish i was holded by a women…and i wish i was to her, her women too