because i want somebody to finallt acknowledge that im not doing “better than ever” and that im actually doing horirblt but i cant show any of that irl because the only hope i have of escaping depends on co vincing people im totally mentally sane and trustworthy and free of the troon thoughts but they just cant fucking tell that im faking all of it and it makes me angey but i csnt say it irl so this stupid platform full of idiot children is all i have left for my narcissism